During a summer where the feeling of change was persistently creeping up at my door and I was trying to accept and welcome possible amendments, I decided to do something I haven't experienced before, something out of my comfort zone; go on my first solo trip.
It's safe to say that this has been a 'different' summer than the rest. A couple of years ago I had three beautiful months off university, then I jumped on the Erasmus wagon across Spain and Latin America, which was followed by two summers feeling blurred and dazed.
In the summer of 2017 I completed one working year in Cyprus. This meant full-time jobs and less time for the nocturnal scene I was used to blasting. With a routine, an early rise and afternoon hobbies throughout the year, I found myself feeling happy with staying in and that desire to constantly be social outdoors, to dissolve. My God, I sound like a working adult!
After all, it is time to get my act together and I'm relieved that it came naturally on its own. Well at least it seemed so, though I'm certain I've done my fair share of contemplating and feeling frustrated with my situation, which has now led to this lifestyle; unexpected yet well-welcomed and dare I say so - needed.
When experiencing deep frustration and irritation, I see it as a pivoting point in one's life. As long as you're able to identify the root that is. I am sensing that this turmoil stems out of a mental and emotional process that is about to propel you towards a new direction. So I often remind myself that this is a 'message' from my consciousness telling me that I'm developing, learning and preparing for new adventures.
As soon as that hits my reality, I notice I'll consciously start making steps towards where I want to be, and if I'm not sure where that is, I'll do what feels best for me. A relatable post of grabbing this internal change by the horns will come in a few weeks - stay tuned!
So this summer I have already noticed changes within me; I don't feel the need to go out as much, stay out as late, drink as much. On the contrary, I fill my time researching, taking up hobbies that will be develop myself both physically and mentally and indulge in heart-to-mind conversations that ignite a spark. Of course it's not always so wonderful and there are plenty of moments where the thoughts in my head get on a never-ending train that circles my mind.
One thing is certain though; I've met some incredible people since coming back to Cyprus and created a circle that's kind, diverse and loving. The Drum Tribe - as we like to call ourselves - have shown me so much already; I learn and am inspired by them whenever we meet. It amazes me how much a person can receive once they're open to it.
I guess what I'm trying to say is allow yourself the time to experience whatever it is that you're feeling, whatever the season, try not to bury it under layers of summer parties; sense it. Every process is a lesson in disguise and to be in-tuned with your feelings you have to experience them.
So this is not your typical best-summer-beaches post but a perfectly normal reflection of self and of taking a deep inner look towards one's inner development. In a way it acts as a reminder to myself and I hope if it speaks to me, perhaps some of you can also relate and gain something from it. After all, as the English philosopher/writer Aldous Huxley once said “there is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that’s your own self.”